Official release. Deemed definitive. Abandoned work.

Studio Recording. Second-to-last version, with ideas and flaws

Grizzly Crossing Studio solo recording. Second-to-last version, with ideas and flaws

Cheap/old studio demo. Decent recording

Home demo. Only for hardcore adventurers

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LYRICS

If such a small thing as a scorpion

Is able to put an end to our thoughts,

Why do we keep calling life a miracle,

Why do we keep waiting for the revealing call?

 

Play it down,

Come on, play it down,

Come on, come on, let it be.

 

Different circumstances have guided me here,

Ideas also deserve democracy.

Scales are always unbalanced right or left,

Between nihilism and jingling bells.

 

Play it down,

Come on, play it down,

Come on, come on, let it be.

 

And summer’s short but don’t weep now, we’ve never shone at survival,

Eternity is only beautiful as a horizon.

And what is true and should make you think is the common uncertainty

Between the smallest hobo and the man of the year.

 

Play it down,

Come on, play it down,

Come on, come on, let it be.

 

Play it down,

Come on, play it down,

Come on, come on, let it be.

World should get ready,

For, people, I’m back on the road again,

I’ve left behind that winter’s liking

And this will be my gain.

 

To spark the day and lit the bulb

I’m back on the road again

And my only arm and my wooden leg

Are just a small detail.

 

Been in my sweet home,

my boring home to hide and rest.

Been in sheets of silk,

The guilty fink they don’t arrest.

 

But silence was a sad disguise

I used to avoid my shame,

And when I enter the fray,

There’s another dummy doll,

dummy doll to blame.

 

I crashed into a satellite

Now I think I shouldn’t have flown so high.

But I’m free of her chain,

And I’m here again to demand what’s mine.

 

Mine are all the lost chances,

Mine’s the wasted time.

Tears turned into diamonds,

And tears have always been mine.

 

Birds, they come and go,

They freely fly over our heads,

They say there’s another life,

a life of vertigo and restlesness.

 

I’ll find a bed to bed down my heart,

I’ll move heaven and earth.

I will grow in other directions

But in love I want to stay.

In the house ev’rybody plays, they are having fun,

I am like a book that they try to sum.

I’m on ev’ry talk, I’m in ev’ry mind

And if I don’t belch they will say I’m kind.

 

I feel like a frog knocking on the door

Of the sweet disection that they keep for me

And this wine tastes like chloroform.

 

In the house ev’rybody thinks I’m a special man,

That I know the things they can’t understand,

That I have the gift to put in words

What they see and feel but they have not thought.

 

They think I’m a genius, that I come from Venus,

Where we grew up with mighty special food,

For the trees they don’t see the wood.

 

And if it be possible to get in my mind,

To take my place for a while,

They’d see all my fears, my impending tears

And all the trues that I hide.

 

And in times it’s funny to be myself,

When I watch my name written on a shelf,

When I pick up a mythomaniac girl

And she offers me the pearl.

 

And this removable affairs were empty just at first,

Now they are my bread.

 

It’s all I can get, I’m many floors above

From the one where people just exists,

Perhaps it be worth, I’m afraid it may not,

But I only know I am here.

You keep on saying obstinately that tomorrow never knows,

That I’ll surprise myself one day suddenly in love with you,

And you base your forecast in my songs,

where you see I’m not the bastard that I show.

 

Another proof of what I mean are this very words,

Another armour, another wall, and you are not afraid to fall,

But your good faith won’t awake my love,

Your optimism will get lost in my forest, in my haze,

And you keep on and on but you are confusing terms

Because I am….I am just the bastard that I show,

And there might be something good but you’ll never know.

 

The prize is high and it will get higher- the times I’ve made you cry-.

But you were thinking it was impossible waving the last goodbye,

You say I got into your heart forever more

And you’ll never be the girl you were before.

But that’s not my problem, it is yours.

 

And if you are so sure you know me how can you explain

Your corpse, your bruises, all those beatings, your standing on the wane;

Don’t justify me, don’t give me shelter,

not all of us must be fair, feelings are not a response.

Ev’rybody ev’rywhere I go believe they know me,

I’m always putting on the top

the new layers of incredulity they chop.

So they made of me the bastard that I show.

 

But if this fact excuses me it could mean that long ago

I had been good, I had been free, I didn’t feel I had

To satisfy the world or the books with dots of gold,

I just had to breath, it was enough,

I suppose there I learnt what I know about love.

 

I’ve kept a little of my feelings, a piece of yesterday,

I have to fight to see you bleeding, a fight against myself,

I’d heal the wound, I’d cry, I’d stop the haemorrhage,

I’d stay if I could go at the same time,

But listen, when I have to choose, I choose myself,

I choose my body and my house.

So people wonders ev’rywhere I go:

How can I write this songs being the bastard that I show?

Mummy, don’t let me drink that much,

Yes, I know I’m a full-grown man,

I know you told me off as a child,

When you found that under the bed.

 

Couldn’t you rock me, again,

And give me some whack?

Somewhere I made a mistake,

And I know there’s no way back.

 

Mummy, don’t let me drink that much,

I miss the still of your side,

Life became complicated,

Kiss me goodnight.

 

 

One thinks that after years

Of continual faith

One could find the rest,

But that’s not that way;

I still need to fill time,

And thoughts are not enough,

I have to cut my vains,

And later heal the wound,

Jumping from the roof,

Bite the wind or the air

Because succes, it can’t be touched,

As it can’t be catched,

And the missing joy is telling :

“Boy you chose to come a

Rainy day at the theme park”.

 

Once a poor king won the war

And he sat down alone

At the edge of a cliff,

He was escaping from his throne,

And looking at his land,

The kingdom in his eyes

He had to recognize

It looked very much like none,

He noticed that his feat

Had been just half as great

As the smiles of his wife,

As his daughter’s face,

Then he saw the future and the past,

The written, what he was going to write,

A mark, a stain.

They look for the aproval of you all,

The pity of you all,

Admiration and respect,

Confusing smokey pall,

And once they get the loot

It’s never as it seemed,

It becomes another good,

An unnecessary dream,

Another little step,

The long-time-wished

But today absolutely annoying pet,

The coming back mistake,

Victim of spleen,

Now it teems, teeming for a lark,

Rainy day at the theme park.

 

You’re not safe

In the face of this.

 

You’re not safe

In the face of this.

 

Up to now

In the row I hid my vow,

Leftovers from the trash,

Fussy and rash.

 

I changed my mind,

Backwards, behind

The curtain and the bunches,

I might have forgotten branches

 

Branches of

The most beautiful oak,

The tree where I grew up,

The grass where slept my pup,

My yesterday,

My life,

The eternal fount

From where water runs.

It’s been looking back,

Simply looking back.

 

In a late show

Once I saw

The godness of the shell

With a voice of rusty bell.

 

A wound that bleeds,

A neverending blitz,

The hole in the old coins,

Girding our loins.

 

The easy choice,

The whispering voice

That tells you there’s another road,

That tells you there’s a better chance,

The genial option,

Right or left,

The secret door

where thousand times somebody stayed.

It’s been always there

It’s been always there.

Put your candies in the jar,

Let’s go to that bunker we dug,

Take the essential clothes,

The bowl for the dogs,

Come on, don’t be loath,

take the hatchet for the logs.

 

Don’t you see

The moon on the wane?

I told you God would return

With an avenging cane.

 

Living’s hard enough and we are so weird

That we put sticks in our wheels;

In a shady room

Hidden we wait

Pretending life goes on

For fellow human beings.

 

And we know

Moon’s on the wane.

There’s something absolutely wrong

But we keep in lane.

 

Speed of love and speed of life,

No time to rest, no peace of mind,

No little stop,

No inn where to lie

Any minute now

We could suddenly die,

And over us,

Moon on the wane,

Too long risking, too long

Stroking crazy lion’s mane.

Baby, recognize your lack,

Your mistakes, your dirty sack

Where you keep crazy weed,

All the things that don’t fit;

Are you proud liying yourself

There’s nobody you need.

 

Don’t you know

The moon on the wane?

The sign that lets you see

You’re not sane.

 

So leave behind your dreams of peace,

This is not this puzzle’s piece,

Renounce to that

You used to call a win,

All your hopes were lies

Now you can bin.

 

Come on, look,

Look at the moon on the wane.

Ain’t it pretty?

Let’s die in vain.

She talks of death without reservation,

She pours the wine and she says swearwords,

She gets drunk, she dances badly, like me,

And, moreover, she’s a beautiful thing.

 

She likes to do strange things untimely,

Like painting fences in the rain, 

When she disagrees she just smiles sadly

Even then she’s a beautiful thing.

 

She never changes the toilet paper,

And she forgets the brush anywhere

She prefers light from a taper

And, moreover, she’s a beautiful thing.

 

She wants to save this pretty earth,

And she sees the weakness of our win,

She wants to build with me a hearth,

And, moreover, she’s a beautiful thing.

Imagine life is a trip of a being (you can call it soul),

Then body is a rented flat, what do you need body for?

 

If it’s to feel sensations like sex or feelings like love,

When you’re tired of sensibility, what do you need body for?

 

If you really want to know what the hell are this stars above,

Then you’re annoyed by gravity, what do you need body for?

 

If you believe in science you don’t need to believe in God,

But if you  believe neither of them, what do you need body for?

 

So when you decide to finish this holidays no matter what you swore,

Take the good, face up the road, what do you need body for?

 

 

Arriving home, as I switch on the lights

I let go of the briefcase with a litlle delight,

I leave the jacket in the hanger and I lock up,

I take off the shoes and I look for my cup.

And many times I whisper “home at last” .

I stumble with the mirror and he tells me no lies,

The wrinkles in the corners of my mouth and my eyes.

And I look for a picture of me as a child

And the difference is enormous but I haven’t noticed.

I wonder where are all those dreams

I dropped lenghtways of life.

Today it’s my birthday, I’ve lost the count,

Time that passed slowly is now water from a fount,

And it won’t move the mill, it’s in the top of a hill,

Where all the chances I wasted are laughing at me.

Well, that’s existence’s fee.

And when the sun heads the new day, as a moonlight thief,

There’s no feeling of lost as in new year’s eve,

And it is a strange fact, mathematics’ bump,

How can be parts bigger than the sum?

It’s not what one was waiting for.

Days are long and years are short.

 

You do me up, neat and tidy,

And it grants me

A certain trophy aspect.

Perhaps it’s all only in my mind,

Perhaps the wine,

another care.

This pink carnation

Is such a detail,

You, so lavish.

Behind the window, like a shark

In an aquarium,

The tame beast.

I guess canapés have never been                      a complete diet,

But you wear them so well.

The kind of things that make you

Think “what a beautiful world”

Are the things that make me think

“I don’t need this at all”,

and so, my fire

is now for hire.

But I’ve never said my attitude

Showed my wisdom,

I practice tolerance.

Though it’s hard for me to stand your craze

I may love you

Otherwise I don’t understand it.

You take me off from a box,

Like a valuable toy,

You laugh at the jokes

You never laugh when we are alone,

It’s so suspicious,

And not auspicious.

Here you are tonight to revise the play,

The lines you write to me,

I have a trophy aspect.

And we’ll repeat this stupid farce

Our shames are sparse,

I have my value.

When you’re so cold you can get old

More than people with feelings,

So we’ll say it’s evolution’s ways

The way you are freezing.

I’m getting abject,

Begin to love my trophy aspect.

Evr’y love starts from pure chance,

A lance,

an arbitrariness.

And if the big bastion tilts

The guilts

must be sent to fate.

 

We fell

so well,

Perhaps the best way

We could have felt.

 

You’ve sewn a cushion of dreams,

And its seams

Are transparent and lean.

As fragile as a rose of sand,

A magic wand

That hides and never reveals.

 

Let’s

accept

That all around us

Is a chance.

 

And as it is,

It could be not,

We could have never met,

We could pass by the street,

As perfect strangers,

Ask for the time,

Talking ‘bout the weather,

on the same line,

have a little thought and forget fast

as we’ve done so many times.

 

The morning seems to wait,

we take the bait,

we sign up for the game,

And you are still valuing love,

But, love,

I’ll never feel the same,

I only play

In the ruins

Of our yesterday.

 

I had you near,

My old wealth, my old need,

My litlle only thing.

You used to sleep under my wing,

And love was only share some dreams,

and feel the warmth of our skins.

Easy things, I miss those easy things.

 

I miss those easy things,

A thin steak,

Cheap wine and a film.

 

I miss those easy things

 

 

Frail lady, I forgive you, show me the nick,

Frail lady, your eyeliner tears are sliding down your cheek.

 

Your candy wristlet’s in the puddle, covered by the mud, I’ll buy for you another one,

So you’ll feed the emerald beetle.

 

Frail lady, I don’t blame you, the glass was broken before.

Don’t worry, it’s a small cut, I will heal your wound.

 

Don’t imitate the cat, and try to fix your look, let me comb your hair.

One sock is white, the other’s red, they aren’t the same pair.

 

Frail lady, come closer, you need to blow your nose,

You shouldn’t wear your wedding dress as daily clothes.

 

Take one of my pyjamas, I’ll take you to your bed, it is cooling down.

It’s coming a hard rain.

 

If you’re afraid, I’ll disconnect the storm, and you could sleep with me

I’ll shot the sky if you fear the ugly moon and we will share my shirts,

In the depths of your eyes I see the one you used to be.

And over me and over all this wrong lays all the good you’ve done.

 

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