Official release. Deemed definitive. Abandoned work.

Studio Recording. Second-to-last version, with ideas and flaws

Grizzly Crossing Studio solo recording. Second-to-last version, with ideas and flaws

Cheap/old studio demo. Decent recording

Home demo. Only for hardcore adventurers

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LYRICS

It’s your business.

She’s not my girl.

She needs your arms.

I can’t understand it.

I don’t admire your behavior

I don’t like your shades.

Could you do me a favor?

I’m a silent hate.

 

I won’t deny you are a sexy man.

But tell me, does it fill you?

Answer when you can.

 

You walked embracing someone,

You were never alone.

I need solitude,

But I don’t kick the world.

These days we are living,

When everything could be wrong,

How do you arrange your mind

To seem so sure?


I won’t deny you are a sexy man.

But tell me, does it fill you?

Answer when you can.

 

You left school.

You saw no use in thinking.

If a cup is near to you,

You just take it.

At last, let me ask you

One more stupid question,

From my rotten impotence:

Was your daddy a transvestite?

 

I won’t deny you are a sexy man.

But tell me, does it fill you?

Answer when you can.

Red and green the traffic lights

Switch twice a minute for no one

And the street lamps are turning off

And a truck is washing the street.

 

A bunch of boys in desperation,

Wait for someone at the gas station,

A dawn of poor winners

In my first world city.

 

At dawn

You’re not alone.

There’s always someone in your same mood,

Up or down.

 

Contemporary cavemen

Have stolen a glass from the last bar

and laughing with their colleagues

they look and howl like hyenas.

 

Girls so young and pretty

Are because of their mini skirt,

They wish they had worn stockings

In that frozen winter night.

 

At dawn

You’re not alone.

There’s always someone in your same mood,

Up or down.

 

You regret the chances

You’ve missed tonight

But on Friday will come a time

To show your art.

 

Waiting until next week

You get home as the sun rises,

Your parents are still sleeping,

You close the door with care.

 

At dawn

You’re not alone.

There’s always someone in your same mood,

Up or down.

I’ve seen your face before,

Your eyes can’t be forgotten,

My feelings are broken,

Do you believe in God?

 

If you believe, I do,

If you’re a sinner, me too,

Well, tonight it’s too late

To be alone with a glass.

 

Understand me, I’m not the kind of guy

Who craws on his knees searching lips.

I’m really in love, in love, in love,

In love…with you.

 

I’ll buy you a strong drink,

I have my car outside

If you are hungry dear,

I’m hungry too, tonight.

Tonight I’m what you need,

What you need me to be,

Let my fingers slide over

Your sticky lips.

 

Understand me, I’m not the kind of guy

Who walks on his knees looking for lips.

I’m really in love, in love, in love,

In love…with you.

No one I’ve ever known

Stumbling…Kapow!

 

Kapow! Kapow! Kapow!

Well, it’s not too late

When I get back home,

With my hands in my pockets,

 

But I take a walk,

I love to get lost where the streets

Turn to alleys.

 

I’ve always loved

Roaming alone,

Dodging garbage bins,

I don’t need anybody.

 

I’ve always loved

Roaming alone,

Speaking with myself,

Writing thoughts.

 

Tramps rise from the dark

And shake their bottles

And ask me for a coin.

 

An ambulance turns on

The blue sirens

And the driver laughs.

 

I’ve always loved

Roaming alone,

Dodging garbage bins,

I don’t need anybody.

 

I’ve always loved

Roaming alone,

Speaking with myself,

Writing thoughts.

 

But I never choose,

I’ll never have you,

I’ll always lose.

 

I pretend I love

Roaming alone

Dodging garbage bins,

Faking I don’t need anybody,

Far from home,

Roaming alone,

All alone, 

with no will to get home.

 

Sometimes I’d like to be a son of a bitch,

I’d like to behave in public like when I’m alone,

Scorning my lover, mocking the others,

Scratching my ass with no care.

 

They look at me and see a moving object,

When they don’t look through me like I was made of glass,

They rule the earth, they are a terrestrial whale,

The human version of the alpha male.

 

We’ve grouped ourselves, there are a bunch of us,

Victims of those bully boys,

We meet once a week to badmouth them,

And play with our childhood toys.

 

Help us, please, we need to escape

From these doubts about ourselves.

 

Crying because we are sure

That we are not sure at all.

It’s a song ‘bout a son,

Everybody is a son,

Everybody is wrong

Everybody goes on.

 

It’s a song ‘bout a tragedy,

A song ‘bout a son,

Well, ‘bout a son of a bitch

 

Nobody understands him,

Nobody tells him off

He thinks they respect him

And it makes him feel strong.

 

It’s a song ‘bout a son,

Everybody is a son,

Everybody is wrong

Everybody goes on.

 

 

It’s a bad explanation

It’s a poor excuse

Not a sister’s death

Or a father’s abuse

 

It’s a song ‘bout a tragedy,

A song ‘bout a son,

Well, ‘bout a son of a bitch

 

He thrives on our panic,

Deep down he’s afraid,

Irrelevance flies in his head.

 

Die, son, die,

Son of a bitch, but son,

Everybody is wrong

Everybody goes on.

Ambush planned by spirits

There’s a secret justice,

Or my regret is a liar.

 

Bumpy is the road of my carriage

Now my socks are my shoes,

And there are stones here.

 

Wild old nights

Come back, now.

It could have been better

That you had never been.

 

She’s gone, but she’s no one I’ve ever known

You can bury my bones,

God will sweep them later.

 

There won’t be a single fingerprint of my being

I won’t appear in the scriptures

Now I feel so hollow.

 

Wild old nights

Come back, now.

It could have been better

That you had never been.

 

I’m sick. I feel the end is very near.

There’s a scythe hanging above me,

This is a wrong man’s goodbye.

I was so neat.

I spent my time with showy girls

of honky voice and loud red dress

drinking and laughing with few words,

dying trying to fuck each night.

 

I was impulsive then when I moved,

my bill became a fat cow,

I could have bitten a dog when I was drunk,

I always like to talk about me, somehow.

 

I cut whiskers and painted heads,

a roving bomb, a rowdy stain,

we mingled with Reuben & his Jets

it’s a smoky memory I can’t forget.

 

My liver cursed me so many times,

Bourbon was my second name,

I put my trust in nasty investments,

I used to be angry so I felt a man.

 

Playground of light: here’s my body,

the only thing I’m sure is mine,

I paid my rent and the ones of my friends,

and I learned a non-sexual use for my mouth,

 

And this lazy guy stopped sleeping

though a half of my brain is damaged forever,

It’s like the animation of a cartoon,

Movement is a magic fog and there is fog around.

 

While tonight’s splendor hits you.

Author's Comments

I Was Neat is a very rowdy, punkish album about marginalized characters who hate anyone who’s “made it.” There’s a ton of dark humor running through it, and in the end, everyone turns out to be a complete idiot. Around this time I was starting to play with more people, and some of the songs were already written with a band in mind.